So as the days are going by I find myself staring at disgusting foods... like cake. Everywhere I go there is cake. And I am not a big cake eater! I will make one occasionally, but normally cake is not my thing. I found myself in Wegman's staring at the bakery cakes, thinking to myself, "Can I demolish that before I get home and not wear it so Matt doesn't know?". Or "Will they think I'm weird if I ask to smell it for 5 minutes?" Yes ladies and gentlemen, those thoughts went through my mind. I sat there, and walked through the bakery aisle like 10 times before the craving finally went away... till I got out the door. Then it hit me as I was walking to my car. The little Devil on my shoulder was saying "Nahhh, you got this, go inside and eat a cake". But I didn't. That night... I went out to meet up with a friend, and got some dinner, and where am I sitting? Right next to the god-damned cake display! As I finish my dinner and a lengthy conversation ensues, the cake is practically knocking on the glass, and screaming "eat me! EAT ME!". So I gave in, and bought a piece. But I didn't devour the whole thing which surprised me. I ate half of the slice. I was kind enough to share too :o) But as I found myself eating it, a bit of satisfaction hit me, like hot cocoa on a freezing afternoon after shoveling. I wasn't craving more when I was done. I was content with my one piece. That one piece got rid of my cravings that I have been having the past few days. Am I disappointed in myself? You bet. Will it happen again? Of course. Will I make this a daily habit? Of course not! And do you know why? Because the lovely people who invent all this delicious processed food we so eagerly fill our bellies with, have made 100 calorie snack packs! One little package can give yummy satisfaction to my sweet tooth craving of the day.
So many people have asked me what am I doing for the diet, and I have come to realize as I am going through my blogs that I haven't kept you up to date with that. I originally started out on the diet that came with the exercise program. I had two problems with that though. It required me to cook too much on my days on, and it wasn't enough sugar to support my hypoglycemia issue. Have low blood sugars in the 30-40's is not a fun experience for me 4 days in a row, and it most definitely wasn't fun for my partner who was experiencing my crankiness. So I was looking for a more practical way... something that is easy preparation, isn't going to cost me an arm and a leg, and still allows me to eat a regular meal at times. I remembered my mother a while back talking about Slim Fast, and I did it when I was going to the fire academy to keep my weight the same. So I went out to the store, and bought some drinks for the Slim Fast 1-2-3 program. It advertises one meal a day, 2 shakes a day, and 3 snacks a day. That is what suits me. The shakes and snacks go in my lunch bag and come with me to work. My 1 meal a day happens when I get home. I have been on it for 3 days. I haven't been hungry once, I find it easy to follow, and I can still have a decent meal that I can enjoy when I get home! Although I am sorry to say the weight is not falling off like it was in the other diet, but this is what suits me and my work lifestyle. I figured I should be at my goal weight by the wedding... Hopefully :o)
With that, sorry for the sporadic blogs, but its been quite hectic at work and home, so by the time I get to sit behind a computer, I am so tired I can't make out what I am typing on the screen. Like right now I just finished a 12 hour day tour, sat down in the recliner, had my nice Miso Soup and started to type. As I am nearing the conclusion of this blog, I am starting to get sleepy. The next post will include new photos and weight (3 more days, maybe with a photo-less blog in-between).
Thank you to all my loyal readers, I love hearing your feed back!
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